Wednesday, June 28, 2006
It's Quiet....Too Quiet...
I'm sitting in my computer lab here right now, going kind of crazy. Why am I going crazy? Well, it's because my ipod is sitting in the lobby on the men's floor because I cut hair yesterday, and so I don't have anything to listen to.
Normally, this wouldn't be too big of a deal, except that I have a paper to write, and I really don't work well in quiet conditions. I grew up in a family of 5 children, and I always had a pleasant amount of background noise. If I really needed to get serious about studying, then I shut the door to my bedroom, and studied. Either that, or I laid all of my things to study out in the living room, that way my siblings saw that I was studying, and they made an effort to not make too much noise. I loved it.
Then, I went away to college. I tried to study in the library sometimes, but I can't do that all on my own--why not? Because I have to study somewhere quiet with someone else so that I can talk to them about what we're studying. If I'm studying on my own, then I studied back in the dorms. Sure, people say it's impossible, and I would agree with them when it's visiting hours, but all other times, I just shut my door, and studied while the insanity of my floor(s) went on outside the door. The noise was a pleasant reminder of home, and it worked for me.
Now, I'm in the Barlow Center, and I'm here during the day because of the fact that my museum was flooded and powerless (two days later, it's not flooded anymore, just still powerless). I've been here working on work stuff that I thought to bring home with me, and it's silent, and quiet, and no one is talking...and it's driving me crazy.
Sometimes, you just feel lonely. You miss your family and friends, and as good of an experience as you're having, you miss things that are completely familiar. Being here, all alone, in silence, doesn't help my lonely feelings. Quite the contrary--I'm about to go out and find myself a DC Buddy just so that I don't have to be humming to myself and talking out loud every now and again. It's a good thing that I'm looking at going into teaching, where there will be a healthy amount of noise most of the time...because I think if I were to do a desk job, I'd go absolutely insane. I sure hope the museum recovers soon.
Normally, this wouldn't be too big of a deal, except that I have a paper to write, and I really don't work well in quiet conditions. I grew up in a family of 5 children, and I always had a pleasant amount of background noise. If I really needed to get serious about studying, then I shut the door to my bedroom, and studied. Either that, or I laid all of my things to study out in the living room, that way my siblings saw that I was studying, and they made an effort to not make too much noise. I loved it.
Then, I went away to college. I tried to study in the library sometimes, but I can't do that all on my own--why not? Because I have to study somewhere quiet with someone else so that I can talk to them about what we're studying. If I'm studying on my own, then I studied back in the dorms. Sure, people say it's impossible, and I would agree with them when it's visiting hours, but all other times, I just shut my door, and studied while the insanity of my floor(s) went on outside the door. The noise was a pleasant reminder of home, and it worked for me.
Now, I'm in the Barlow Center, and I'm here during the day because of the fact that my museum was flooded and powerless (two days later, it's not flooded anymore, just still powerless). I've been here working on work stuff that I thought to bring home with me, and it's silent, and quiet, and no one is talking...and it's driving me crazy.
Sometimes, you just feel lonely. You miss your family and friends, and as good of an experience as you're having, you miss things that are completely familiar. Being here, all alone, in silence, doesn't help my lonely feelings. Quite the contrary--I'm about to go out and find myself a DC Buddy just so that I don't have to be humming to myself and talking out loud every now and again. It's a good thing that I'm looking at going into teaching, where there will be a healthy amount of noise most of the time...because I think if I were to do a desk job, I'd go absolutely insane. I sure hope the museum recovers soon.
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